i can’t go to sleep because the voices in my head get louder when i close my eyes
i can’t afford another relapse this week..
i just wish you would answer me. break it off or comfort me and tell me you won’t leave me like the others. either way just please god put me out of my misery.
i don’t know what to do. i’m starting to get that feeling that i know always ends in hurt. and i don’t know if i’m ready to go through that again.
the idea of loving you terrifies the living hell out of me. it would mean that i would have to trust you and i have some issues with that.
i like you a lot. i might even have the potential to love you. but i know I’m just going to fuck it up like i always do. its in my nature.